It just got REAL

The "C" word happens to other people. It doesn't have a face until it happens to you! I told my hubster last night that it still doesn't seem real to me. I've been told I have cancer in both breasts and I really thought I was being realistic. I've read as many books about cancer as I can get my hands on. I've researched options and treatments. I've researched surgeons. I've prayed about it a LOT and felt confident, positive and ready to move forward.

BUT, somehow hearing our preacher tell our church family this morning,  "Charlotte Parrack has cancer" was.......REAL. Mind blowing. Authentic. Certain. It shocked me a little to hear it said out loud like that.

My precious husband went to pray with an elder. I know he won't admit it, but he's scared. Scared of losing me, I know. He's being very supportive and strong for me, but I realize that this disease has affected him as much as it has me. We WILL fight it and we will BOTH fight it together as a team, but it will affect us both differently.