Sharing the News

I'm pretty sure my parents were expecting the news. Being sent to the city on the same day...just the urgency of it all prepared them for the news. I have two married daughters that figured the news wasn't going to be good when I wouldn't tell them on the phone. I waiting until that night when we got back home to break the news to everybody. We have a precious 19 year old daughter that we adopted internationally that still lives with us and is in High School to graduate this year. She was very quiet and teared up a little. She asked me later if I was scared, and admitted that she would be terrified. I think she's a little concerned about losing a mother again, so the family will have to be sensitive to her feelings during this journey.

My other two daughters had a lot of questions that I couldn't answer for them yet. Like: "How do you feel?" I was just numb at that point. As to the questions about the cancer and the spread of it, I won't know anything until next week. So far, they are supportive and I know they will be there for me when I need them.

My husband of almost 38 years took it like a champ. Although I'm sure he is on his own emotional journey and we both may mourn the loss of my breasts, he assures me that we are in this fight together and we will deal with whatever we need to. It's early in the process, but so far, I'm not scared. I just know that God has a plan and He will walk with me the entire way and I know He can heal me if He chooses. I'm asking for that because He tells us that He cannot grant our requests if we don't ask. I'm mostly asking for strength and courage to face whatever comes. I'm hopeful we have caught it early and I won't need chemo.

 
I'm claiming 1 Peter 3: 3-4 (NIV) Because I have made the decision to "Go Flat" (more on that later)
"3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. 4 Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight."