My eyes are up here!

Bras are completely optional for me.  . . . . That's right gals! Bring on the jealousy! One of my gal-pals told me her shoulder indentions hated me! Love that!

I'm rebelling against putting an uncomfortable bra on—-so I could put something uncomfortable and heavy inside, so that those around me are not uncomfortable! God forbid they should be uncomfortable around my flat chest. And good grief, let's not make everyone uncomfortable regarding my lack of curves.

Society and commercialism makes women feel like we have to be thin and have perky boobs. We must look feminine in our figure and attire. Sex sells. They attack our self-esteem. And there's so much information that bombarded me with reconstruction that it immediately turned me off. 

I chose no reconstruction. I'm trusting my gut. I've been asked multiple times why I made that decision and I don't mind sharing my reasoning.

First reason: I had 'foreign' (several in fact) crap in my boobs and wanted it gone. Why would I put something else foreign in my chest? I just saw the potential for more problems.

Second reason: New breasts would not restore an erogenous zone. I have no feeling in my chest due to cutting the nerves. Fake ones would have no feeling either. They could not nourish a baby. They would only fill out my clothes to make other people feel comfortable (which I don't care about)
and perhaps allow me to pretend that I had not had crappy cancer.

Third reason: Reconstruction would require more hours in the operating room and involve a plastic surgeon. There were a couple different options I could've chosen, including a 'free' (she said with sarcasm) tummy tuck, but that's another incision and longer recovery, along with added possibility of problems.

I refuse to believe that I must have fake boobs to be accepted, fit into what society thinks, or to make other people feel comfortable. I would feel so weird with fake boobs. And as I mentioned in an earlier post, (Lemonade) I'm looking forward to art on my chest!