It's in the grey area

 

I’ve always found it interesting (and totally unfair) that gray signifies “old” on women but translates to “distinguished” on men.

We are constantly judged by our appearance (which is one of the main reasons women get reconstruction surgery). Ignoring that judgment is difficult, even when we know we should. Women struggle to fit into jeans that are too tight, wear flats if heels would make us taller, fret over freckles. But hair — in any color, style or texture — is a category all by itself. We are constantly straightening it, curling it, coloring it, cutting it, adding extensions to it, teasing it, spraying it, and don’t even get me started on how many bottles and jars of shampoos, conditioners and other hair products are littering bathroom shelves.

I don't have a problem with women who choose to color their hair, or any of the other many things they do to make themselves feel beautiful. I did it for over 30 years! I'm not judging! But for me, going grey has given me freedom that I didn't really know I was needing.

After crappy cancer, I switched to all natural products in my home, getting rid of toxins and carcinogens anywhere I could, and hair dye was just one of the things I decided not to put on my head again! I have a lot of insecurities that weren't there before crappy cancer (it changes a person) but when I look in the mirror and see my scars, flat chest, grey "highlights". . . . I'm pleased with my choices. I'm not gonna say I don't miss my boobs because I do! But, I'm so glad I got that foreign substance out of my body and I certainly didn't want to put something foreign back in! And that coalesced into being REAL with myself and others. No foobs for me (that's fake boobs for you novices), no fake hair color either! They just seemed to go hand in hand to my way of thinking!

I honestly do not care what others think, and I never have. If you look at me and see no curves where there should be, and curves where there SHOULDN'T be, then whatever you think is on you. Not my business.

It's in the grey area, but I'm happy with my choices. . . . . flat chest and grey hair has given me power over my own body!